I am starting over.
In honour of the year of faith which started last week, I want to renew my efforts at reading, living, and reflecting on words of our Holy Father. I believe that what the Lord, through the Church, and especially in the words of our Holy Father, is asking us is applicable and beneficial to each and every kind of person’s life.
So I take the Holy Father’s words as my own, and I am going to make this my attitude toward this coming year:
“This, then, is how we can picture the Year of Faith: a pilgrimage in the deserts of today’s world, taking with us only what is necessary: neither staff, nor bag, nor bread, nor money, nor two tunics – as the Lord said to those he was sending out on mission (cf. Lk 9:3), but the Gospel and the faith of the Church, of which the Council documents are a luminous expression, as is the Catechism of the Catholic Church, published twenty years ago.” http://www.zenit.org/article-35704?l=english
Now, I don’t really expect this to be easy. In fact, I am expecting it to be quite, quite difficult. But one thing I have been learning about myself is that I generally set my expectations toward the “hard” setting, and luckily, many times I am surprised that things are much easier that I anticipated!
So for this journey, I am to take only what is necessary, only my faith and the Lord and the Church that he has given me? Well good because that is just about all I can manage. I am adjusting to the blossoming of my vocation, 1 year into marriage and 3 months since our child came into the world, so I’m glad I don’t have to worry about any staff or bag or bread, and especially not money! Just the thought that the Lord doesn’t want me to worry about money is freeing, and why it is taking me til now to realize this, I do not know! Just yesterday I read an article by my bishop asking me to trust in God and be a generous steward of what God has given me:
They [consumer society] say, “Please worry all the time!” But Jesus said exactly the opposite. “Don’t worry! – Indeed your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But strive first for the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and these things will be given to you as well.” http://www.calgarydiocese.ca/messages-from-the-bishop/924-rediscovering-gospel-values.html
Okay, well I think I got the message. Trust God with that element of my life. Give financially as planned (my husband and I put tithing into our budget) and let God take care of the things that are clearly much better managed by Him!
Now, I hear that darling baby he gave me stirring. Off I go to take care of the precious little person he’s entrusted to me, now that I have put all my worries back where they belong, in God’s capable hands!